The Ups And Downs Of My Path Of Destruction

My name is Gaby, im 17 and i live in Cornwall in the UK. Ive recently found myself quite lonely.. which doesn’t make sense because i have the best of friends who i see regularly. I have this need to feel loved, to feel important, to feel as if somebody actually cares about me but this has caused me to make a few mistakes in the last couple of months all of which bring me to tears. Im becoming the person i never thought i would be, the person i would of slated in the past. I have the most amazing family which i am so thankful for, yeh they can annoy the hell out of me and im probably quite mean and rude to them at times but i honestly don’t know what i would do if i didn’t have them, i don’t tell my parents alot but i know that they are there and they will support me no matter what and that is the most reassuring thing. I have a younger sister that does my head in and sometimes i actually want to kill her but if anybody dare say a bad word about her well they have me to deal with thats just the way it works i guess. Now i also have two Staffie’s and if im honest i treat them like i would a baby brother and sister, they are amazing they love to give cuddles and kisses even if you don’t want them.. and they have the most amazing personalities. Im currently in sixth form studying business, French, media and psychology, i didn’t do aswell as i hoped in my AS exams so im really hoping to crack down at the beginning of the new school year. After sixth form i would love to go to uni and study something to do with psychology.. in the future i would love to be a forensic psychologist and help the police and the courts deal with murders and criminals, i would also love to work in a mental hospital it probably sounds strange but i find things like that so interesting. Ive recently realised that as soon as things start too look up they end up being ruined in one way or another.. im not sure whether it is my fault or just a unlucky coincidence but it always happens. Im fed up of being treated like shit and walked all over i want somebody to truly care for me truly love me and protect somebody to be there for me, but i cant see that happening just yet. If you want to know anything else then feel free im always here if anybody wants to talk :) x Promote your Tumblr!